It feels good to have someone care for you
It feels good to have someone asking "hows your day?", in a good way
It feels good to have someone lend his ear for all the chaos you embraced everyday
It feels good to let someone listen to your heart, i mean your deep deep deep heart
It even feels good when you have to not pretend that it feels good when you have something to be worried about
I dont know my own feeling. Its a shame. I know.
I dont even know if i will feel it again, will i be able to feel it again?
I tried but each time im close enough, it ruined, like totally ruined!
I did not even know am i the one to be blamed? Am i the weirdo one? Am i not good enough? Or did i have too high expectation that should not be?
Truth to be told. I am lonely. Even i forgot how to love and how to be loved.
Maybe it feels warm but thats the way i act. Changes wouldnt happen in a blink eyes, for now take it or leave it.
I would love to give and take if someone is willing to accept me for who i am.
To cut the chase, im sorry if im not being a good friend enough for what you have done. Deep down, i am thankful for everything happened throughout my 27 years of life
I believe, He will surely put the right person knocking down to your heart, and i hope, when the time comes, i am ready to open this stoneheart.
Please pray for my phd journey. Thanks...